Hello crazy cats, it's another fun-filled hump day! As of late, I've still been feeling a little under the weather, but I have been trying to ignore it and carry on. I guess it couldn't come at a better time because even my workload at work was low. It's kind of like a mini vacation. Anyway, I took this opportunity to reflect and meditate on things that have been affecting my life recently. I have been reflecting and thinking alot, to say the least. These moments have been an eye-opening experience.
Now before I get emails of people saying that I see the world through rose-colored glasses ( God, I hate that expression), let me say that I don't. I just refuse to let the world bring me down any more. I fight for my happiness.
Anyway, good things have been happening to me lately.i even came into some money recently and decided to treat myself. Unfortunately, my original plan did not come to flourish. The plan was to invite some I knew on a weekend fishing trip, but things didn't work out as planned. So, I quickly improvised and called up an old friend. Although we didn't do the fishing trip, we decided to catch a show and watch scary movies till we peed our pants. Actually, she peed, I laughed. Plus, she needed to get out of her house. She was going nuts. She was going through so much. life had her against the ropes and I know that this was a great stress reliever.
I try never to forget about how much our friends and loved ones mean to me. I cherish them with all my heart and they know that I love them dearly. I guess I had forgotten that there are people in this world that genuinely care about you and love you. I know that my family loves me, but it's nice to see others (besides family) can love you too. I recently have noticed that I'm saying things more open now. Before, I tended to hide my feelings, when it came to show of affection. Some series of unfortunate events, have made me face the real fact that you should tell them how you fell because tomorrow may be too late. Now, I'm not talking just about death. It may be that you no longer can say what you feel about that person. Life can be cruel sometimes.
Let me give you an example... I will not mention the names,but it will not matter anyway. The story takes place in 1986. Yeah yeah yeah...I know...ancient history... Anywho, I was in junior high. As I sat down for my first day of class in the new grade (notice I'm not telling you what grade. You figure it out), I met this girl. She was the sweetest girl I had ever met. We became friends and quickly found ourselves hanging around each other a lot. We were like totally awesome friends...Sorry, it's the 80's talking... right... We were pretty much inseparatable. We even went to see "The Goonies" together.I pretty much realized that we were attracted to each other, but I dared not try to make a move. I feared that I would damage what we had. I was already looking towards the break-up before we even dated! It was awful. I had a crush on this girl bigger than the whole United States had on Michael J Fox and Molly Ringwald put together ( by the way, Molly Ringwald is soooooo flipping hot!). I so way wanted to kiss her...again with the 80's talk!
Some how, she noticed the situation and tried to make it easier for me. Do you think this idiot went for it? NO! I was suffering from terminal nerdosity! I guess she got tired and went with some other dude. My heart was broken. I was devastated. I even failed the grade! It took me all summer to forget about her. Why did I let her get away? It was a dumb mistake. Years later, I bumped into her and we chatted. She even brought up the subject of us in school. We laughed and she told me that she had the biggest crush on me. She also said that she was devastated when I didn't ask her to be my girlfriend. I told her the truth. I was too scared. I was scared to live my dream of being her boyfriend. I was scared about the possible problems may might encounter. How stupid is that? So, as she walked away with her child, I realized that I should never hold myself back from being happy. Life is an adventure. Love is an adventure.
So, I bet I have lost everyone on the moral of the story. Well, me too. Anyway, don't live your life scared. Take the risk. You may have the best thing in life happen to you. Keep safe and dream big!
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