Hey crazy cats, it's the weekend...finally. All I have to say is I'm glad it's over. This week, I've been working on my apartment. I'm changing things around, making it more my own. I've come to realize that I haven't had anybody over my place. I am a very "closed" person. Sure I like to have fun with my friends, but I am very weird when it comes to my place. The thing is that I don't know why. My friends think I'm a weirdo and my girlfriend gets upset. They have a right. I really don't know why I don't share my place. It isn't like the place is in shambles. I tend to keep a very clean place. It's like I'm afraid to "open" up.
With this in mind, I set out to find what was the root problem to my dilemma. The more I looked into it, the weirder it got. I don't even let my close relatives in my home. I even freak out when the maintenance guys come over without me being there. So... I kept on looking for an answer. Could it be that I'm afraid of what people might think of me? Could it be that I'm afraid of feeling too personal. Could it be that I'm just a goober who needs to invite my friends ( and especially my girlfriend) over? I guess it's that I'm a goober who worries about dumb things. the dating world is still fairly new to me and I need to catch up with it.
So folks, I ask one thing of you. Help me out. I'm willing to hear to advise, just don't be too off the wall. I'm willing to reboot and have my life Sam V2.0. Who knows, this could be fun. I know I'm not the easiest person to get along with, but I'm a loving person. I definately want to try something new. Well, I'm gonna leave you all with that assignment. Let me know any ideas. Have a safe weekend. Keep safe and dream big..
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